One of the classic conversations after watching the truman show is if , just maybe, our lives are like that of Truman... Where everybody is watching us go through our day to day activity wihtout us knowing any different. Well the longer I serve on a mission I come to find out that that is the life of a missionary. Constantly I get the request for information on just about everything about my life, which I freely give. What happens next is what bugs me. In an everyday conversation there is two sides. Each person brings something to the conversation. Well it feels like I give all of this detail and in return I don't recieve any insight into the life of the person I'm writing. There have been excuses given that it is to keep me focused or I don't need to worry about the things of the world. Did you ever think that being treated like a normal person is what keeps me going on my mission? I've seen enough people who completely void themself of all personality when they come and serve a mission. Dare I say, turning into robots happy to eat, live, and breath the life of the mission. It is those sort of peopel that quickly tell you to leave them alone and that they want to focus on their mission. Me on the other hand.... I am still a person, and I pride myself in such a statement. I still have a heart and soul that cares deeply about the people that I left back home and wants to keep up with them so that when I return home those connections still exsist. Was it not enough that I gave up two years of being surrounded by the ones I love. Is it truly neccesary that I also remain clueless as to what they are doing in their life? how they are progressing and how their passions develop?
I am told often that we (meaning the people my age) are at one of the most important times of our life. Each decisioun that we make will decide how the rest of our life goes. Here I sit 2000 miles away from those I grew to love making me no longer a part of their life only because they are worried that I might break some focus. I thrive off of continuely maintaining my friendships from back home. Friendship is one of the most valuable things I have been given in life and I plan to treasure it. All I ask is that people not worry about me... I'm fine and can handle myself. If I don't have time to write you one week I will the next. Time is not as big of an issue as people make it out to be.
I am no different fromt he Mat that left a year and a half ago. I still long for friendships and care about what goes on in the life of my friends. So my plea is to break me free from this show I'm trapped in. Let me know what is going on in your life. Let me know that you are still alive and kicking. I want to hear the ups and the downs. The hard and gritty of life or the happiest moments of your life. I am a person no different from you and long for the friendship I once had with so many of the people I left back home. My life will be an open book if you open yours to me.
God has blessed us with personallities so that we may bless the lives that we come in contact with.
I love you all! and I thank those who have kept in contact with me. I have truly enjoyed renewing friendships lost and hearing about whats going on in life and ask that you continue to do so. I have slacked off on blogging merely becasue I felt I was just feeding the fire. People were able to "watch" my life and in return I felt like I was just talking to myself. Let me know your alive and I'll worry about my end.
My address is on the top left of my blog but I will leave it here just in case
Elder Mat Harb
5242 Lyngate Ct.
Burke, VA 22015
I look forward to hearing from you all! You are in no way obligated to write me. I just wanted to let everybody know that it is ok to write me and that I would love to hear from you.
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